Visit to San Diego

A lovely Saturday..
Coolness in the air and calmness in the mind. After a long day, I am enjoying the gift of nature. The day started with a good talk with my husband, my near and dear for everything and anything. Yes.. These are some precious moments when I talk both valuable and absurd whatever there are in my mind. And he patiently listens to all of them.
This is the third week I am spending in Scottsdale and now I am feeling myself again free to live here. Today, one of the best day in my life as I got a very good solution to settle down my life with my husband and got a time line too. Feeling relaxed!!!!
Last weekend was my first visit to outside Scottsdale to San Diego. There I saw the real society of United States of America. People do not have time to wait for anybody. People do not care for any body. On a positive front, people do not need anybody to enjoy their lives. It was a good trip to visit a nice place of California State. The journey was with manager and family. So it was an addition for me to observe the child of manager and how they are managing their child. He does not have a good reputation in team. But it was good that he took us with him. But he was so funny. Every time he forgets the car key :). It might be around ten times he forgot some keys.
On day 1, we first visited sea beach of Pacific ocean. It was cool and freezing. I was nostalgic of my Puri beach trip. But scenario was different. Here people were jogging, cycling. Unlike Puri, where most of the people used to bath. Then we started for museum of natural history. There I visited many a things like dolphin, dinosaurs and many collections. We saw three 3D shows. It reminded me of my first 3D show that I had seen with my husband in Kolkata. I had slept during that time. But this time I was awake :)and seen everything that was there. In the evening we were again on sea beach to enjoy sunset. I was forcefully sat on a rollercoaster. Again same case, in Kolkata I had reluctantly sat with Kishan. But this time, I could not deny and had to sit. It was horrible. I cannot enjoy such things. Then we got into a Mexican restaurant. Food is what I can never ever like. I could not decode whether it was chicken or vegetables only. Still I had to. There was a beautiful sunset view beyond the horizon of pacific ocean along with the rainbow. I loved that place. It was serene. I wanted somebody very close to me or completely lonely for some time to enjoy that beauty of nature.
It was time to be back to hotel room. Hotel rooms were so organized. Everything was there. Alas! In a big bed I had to sleep alone.
Journey began for day two to the SeaWorld of San Diego. The flowers were lovely. It was full of colors. I enjoyed everything there. Though there was a missing factor inbuilt within me, place was really awesome. I see many things for first time in my life. There were Samu, the killing whale; sea lions, dolphins, penguins, sharks and innumerable water inhabitants. The trained Samus were playful and were acting like anything. I had just heard of dolphins and heard of their amiable behavior. But it was unbelievable to real eyes to see what they can do. It was nice to see the organizational behavior and the maintenance of the whole place.
On the other hand, I was not able to enjoy everything due to heavy missing factor that was cursing me from within. I finally bought a DVD to show Samu’s acting’s to my near and dear ones. In spite of so many beautiful things around me, I was feeling like crying from within. It was reminding me of Ani, with whom I had roamed many small places of Bhubaneswar. I was feeling as if I do not deserve so many things of life, when in return I am not able to give anything to the personalities who have made me to reach here. We finally came back to hotel around eight in the night. The night was pathetic for me. Kishan was online to talk with me. He was not at all happy. He had just returned from Bhubaneswar to Kolkata with the same deprivation of humanity of people in his heart and mind. I have seen the way he is treated in Bhubaneswar and now it is too difficult because nobody is there. I chatted many things with him till he felt bit relaxed. As usual, hardly he speaks the sorrows of his heart. I hated everything that I had given to enjoy. I could not sleep on that delicious bed. I could not eat even. I was feeling like returning back to India.
It was the last day for us in San Diego. We visited some beautiful sea beaches. I wished to spend some time there alone to speak with nature. We saw two more museums of Art and Culture and of Human. It was then time to return back to Scottsdale. We started around six from San Diego. It was a cool night journey on car. I was sitting alone with the little daughter Lipi on the last seat. She was sleeping on my lap. I was in deep thoughts enjoying the beautiful night. There were snowy white hills in both sides of the road. I saw a full moon after a long days. I could not able to sleep and waste that beautiful time. It was just time for me. To think of myself. To be within me. Infact, I regained some of my inner energy to think of nature and to think of life. I was imagining of a baby of my own, which I can gift and will be a gift to my own too. The whole journey gave a lot of strength.
The end of trip to San Diego.
How to end? May be I will be able to edit if I want to have a good end of it  It is just a part of life. The people of a high profile society take a break from regular life to enjoy. I never had imagined of such things. This artificial sugar was never added to life where I had lived my life… Our regular life and the joy and sorrows in the small home are just the great movies for me. Now life style is changing. I have travelled a long path. The path is so long when I take a look back!!!!
From where I started to where I am today
The journey has been long & tiring
from nothing to some thing I am today
It’s not been an easy journey.
Still Fly with the wings of the thought
feel with the wisdom of yesterday
burry the sorrow, make place for the new
rejoice in what will come and dare
give way, don't let nothing frighten you
just make the journey of the heart!!!