Miles I went!!!!!

The woods are lovely dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
Miles to go before I sleep,
Miles to go before I sleep!!!!
This was the extract I learnt long back in the age of 16 years. It was a time when I did not know the meaning of it. My teacher had taught it to me as a meaningful line, but I was not aware of it. It may be because I have never imagined of such a long path of life. A shy girl of the class is now the only girl of the class to reach somewhere alone. Now I have covered an unimaginable length of life. Life has been so different. There has been a change from every angle of life. It was a time when I used to have my diary with me. My diary was my best friend to control me, to scold me, to hold my tears and to share my joy. I never wanted to upon up myself. Now I do not want to cry with my diary. And now I want to write blogs instead of diary!!! It’s not that I have become very wise and learned; still I want to share my thoughts. Often I feel I am the luckiest and times I feel I am the loneliest. And in real sense, yes I am. Success throws you in the loneliest path. You have to walk alone. You have listen realize some bitter truths of life. Though I am not that successful. I have attained enough success to realize the loneliness and bitter truths.
I am not among them who loves a lavish life. And luckily God has not given it to me too. But I am afraid of my own life. Will there be a time when I will be different than my nearer and dearer??? I do not know when I become so big to argue with things. I have started giving my own view points. There was a time when my brother was my best friend. Now we are deviating in our views of life. We are arguing in our each views. I have been nurtured in a small village. My father is the guide to show me this path. But now I have come so far.. After them I got my next gift of life. My husband…. He is different. Much different from the millions of husbands, who keep their wives with all luxury and gift them with all materialistic things. I never expect such things from him. But it is the heart where love is stored in plenty. It is the lap that has the capacity to take away all sorrows. I never thought that I would be so close to somebody. But it was his wonderful capability to pull me. I do not want to argue with him. But times I do. And I feel lonely. I do not want be more knowledgeable than me. And I am not too. But again its the same reason which sometimes shivers me from within.
I do not have any solution to it. Ohh!! Gopal, Is it I am also forgetting you? This would be the last thing to do. Please help me!!! I am nothing alone… I do not want anybody to away from me. Give me strength Lord.