A tribute

It was a casual Sunday morning and I was talking to my husband. And luckily I was talking in synch with my husband unlike other days while my emotional madness rules and the talk end up with a mood off for both of us.
We were talking about my brother-in-law’s project on e-education in villages and casually I asked why he had chosen his own village Narigan where 80% of the people are already literate enough. The one reply of this casual question was strong enough to lighten my mind. My husband replied it was just a foundation stone to put legacy of his father.
From the day of marriage, the only thing in which I was not able to share was my husband’s inner sorrows for his father’s early death. The incident that became the turning point for five innocent children. Alas!! He was not there with the kids who developed with their own to stand proudly on the society. I have never seen my father-in-law. He had already left this materialistic world long before twenty years of my arrival to this house. Whenever I listen about my father-in-law, I used to feel very helpless. I feel why God did this. With the course of time, there is a great respect inbuilt within me for his thoughts and ideologies that I have heard of. Irony is had he been there, the family would have been in much affluent position not to accept me as bride. Apart from my responsibilities, often I feel ashamed to be the bride of this family. I have always heard from my husband that they just studied hard to fulfill Daddy’s dreams. Then sometimes I feel could I contribute to this!!
Now it seems like God has heard me. I have taken the opportunity to help my brother-in-law in his project. My husband’s reply worked as an inspiration for me. I do not know how much my contribution would help in making the project successful. But I would be proud enough if my effort can be included in putting the foundation of my late father-in-law.
Today on his death anniversary I cannot feel the void that was created long time back. Still I wanted to spend some time alone. Just to be with the omniscient lord and to ask him why he does this. There is no hard and fast rule for me to do something as part of custom. But it was my inner voice that restricted me to enjoy today. I loved the day as I spend time with the almighty, with myself and with my project to put legacy of my father-in-law!!!!!!!